I recently had an amazing shamanic healing with a woman on Zoom which I am really feeling now. I have been doing healing for over thirty years but have never experienced a Shamanic healing session before. The healer, who is also a Barbara Brennan healer, (BBSH) journeyed with sound, using her voice, and a rattle to take me where I needed to go. As I use sound myself in healing, this proved to be a powerful experience.
My journey started in a tree, after which I found myself going through the phases of development in my life where I had learned to access different archetypes of the Divine Feminine. Most of these phases were pulling some already learned past life experiences into this one.
The journey began with me as a young Native American man sitting on a painted horse, looking out over the Plains and contemplating the journey.
When I was a young girl growing up in rural Ireland, I had a real problem accepting that I was a girl. I quite clearly was in the wrong life and ‘should’ have been a young Native American boy, with black hair, not brown, and with chestnut skin, not white. This belief lasted well into my teens and early twenties.
On the journey, as I rode across the Plains, I morphed into a Japanese girl in traditional costume, holding a paper umbrella above my head.
I got off the horse and walked into town where I entered a Japanese building and sat down on the floor. (When I first began my psychic/healing training I had a female Japanese guide whose name meant Blossom. At the time, I didn’t realise that she was an aspect of my own Soul, a past life personality acting as my guide and reminding me of what I already knew).
In my hands, I held a tall cone which I placed on the head of an Egyptian priestess. It was one of those perfumed cones they wore on their wigs which melted in the heat and made them smell nice. A necessary thing in Egypt where the smell of dust and sweat is ever-present.
I was then the priestess, walking along the street on the West Bank in Luxor which runs along the bottom of the Theban Hills, passing Hatshepsut’s Temple, the Ramasseum and many other smaller temples. From 2011 until 2016 I lived in this area, carrying out energy-work in the temples, and in Luxor, doing what priestesses of antiquity did. Healing the astral layers of old trauma and installing new healing templates for the future Soul development of the area.
In the next part of the journey, I was still the priestess but now I was carried in a sedan chair and set down by the waters of the Red Sea. I spent three years there and loved it. I did art, energy-work and healed many old issues connected to abuse. If you cannot find your power as a woman in a place like Egypt, you cannot find it anywhere. It is a constant challenge to deal with the oppression of women, but Hurghada was a place of healing and succour for me. I just wish I could have stayed longer. But I have plans for a future there.
My next stage was back in the UK, in the present, where I look after my elderly father. It is a struggle because he intensely mistrusts women; a mistrust that borders on hatred. This is a challenge for me as I spend every day with him and have to work hard at holding my energies both open and protected at the same time. I grew up with this man and his hatred, taking it all into my body, and without realising it, hating that I was born a female. That doesn’t mean I would ever change it, however. I know I am a woman but deep unconscious beliefs tell me that is not a good thing.
So, as part of the journey, I focussed on those energies of the feminine I had developed over the years, pulling them into my energy field and holding them there. Holding myself strong without diminishing my father in the process. His beliefs come from a lifetime of struggle and at eighty-two he is too old to change. Neither does he want to.
But I can. I can unpick and uncover and release these deep beliefs and allow myself to feel powerful again, and in the process, integrate both my male and female energies so they work as a partnership.
That is the goal for us all, ultimately. And I am looking forward to seeing what that looks like.